February 2012
14 posts
scared shitless!
Crazy Time.
So I’m stuck at work and counting down the hours till I go and party with the boys! I finally can drink dance and be the old crazy Jo for the night. Its been a while since crazy Jo has came out. And knowing Lanie is gonna be with me its about to be super wild!! <333 lets see what the night has in store for us once we start sipping on some drinks 8)
Questions
Are relationships ever worth it? I feel it is.
Are you a virgin? No.
Are you in a relationship? Nope.
Are you in love? No.
Are you single this year? Yes.
Can you commit to one person? Yes.
Describe your crush: taller than me, short hair, asian, peirced ears.
Describe your perfect mate: Taller than me, short hair, asian, brown eyes, pierced ears.
Do you believe in love...
times like this...
times like this i wish i was in a place where no one can find me
times like this i wish i was not alive
times like this i hate the feeling that is tearing me apart
outside i look as happy as can be but inside right now i am screaming out HELP ME!
i keep pushing people away when they are really just trying to help me.
i feel i am falling back into my old ways..
am i always gonna stay in this...
Watchrolandbigornia:
ding.
You'll know you're ready to be in a relationship...
REST IN PEACE
ALINE WE MISS YOU SO MUCH.
I KNOW YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE NOW.
YOUR FAMILY IS IN MY PRAYERS
R.I.P. 06/26/1989-2/16/09
outside i smile, inside tearing apart.
On the outside i say im fine, but really no one know im tearing apart in the inside. It sucks to know that love is happening all around us and i have this huge wall because no one wants to know the real me, they just want to get in and get out. People are so harsh these days. Only time can tell right? I know that me being upset isn’t helping anyone especially myself. I take the time to help...
Untitled: Day 1 →
I get that you feel down and i get that you are hurting and i know that. It maybe hard to move on but that person will never know what they had until that day where they get treated like crap by their boyfriend or whatnot and realize that they would have made a better decision with you. I know that you are an amazing person and not a lot of girls see that. Its better to keep your head up and move...
THAT ONE.
I wish I could have that one person that can make my heart beat fast and slow at the same time.
I wish I could have that person that I can be myself around and not be judged for it.
I want that one guy that can make me happy and when I’m sad make me feel like I am at Disneyland.
I want that one guy who don’t act different when he is around his girl and his boys.
I want that one...
What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger
One of those days…
Thinking about everything that has happened.
Time goes by too fast!
January 2012
7 posts
1.21.12
rest in peace grandpa you will always be missed! <33 xoxox
Breakeven →
December 2011
1 post
November 2011
9 posts
I push against the grain
As much as people try and set me back on my goals I don’t think you guys realize that’s what makes me as strong as I am. I may have my low points in my life but me knowing I don’t have people who believe in me and my dreams make me want to prove you wrong. I may get knocked down through the process but I will beat you. I will be the one who will be content. And than you will see...
GOBBLE GOBBLE
HAPPY TURKEY DAY! I HOPE YOU GUYS HAVE AN AMAZING DAY WITH YOUR FAMILIES!
IM HONESTLY AND TRUELY THANKFUL FOR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I AM ALSO THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE AND WELL.
<33333 XOXOXOX
Kick it up!
GYM TIME! TIME TO GO THREE DAYS A WEEK. WORKING OUT TIME. LOST 5 POUNDS. GAINED IT BAVK. NEED TO LOOSE 20 :)
Love & Hate About Winter
Love.
When you have that special person you can be lazy with all day and cuddle.
Hate.
Getting sick and doesn’t go away fast enough for me.
Needing spring to come now!!
One of those days..
Its sadly one of those days I look up in the sky and ask myself what you are up to in heaven.
Its one of those days where I come to think what ifs?
Its one of those days where I wish you could be by side.
Its sadly one of those days I touch the back of my neak and touch the tattoo I did to remember you and never forget you.
I miss you baby.
I wish I could give you lots of hugs and kisses.
I...
Making that money.
Working five days a week is so tiring. But once spring semester we will see how hard it will be. Well all I know my hard work is shown when I get my amazing paycheak :)
Getting ready to head to work till ten tonight. Its about to be a long night.
The days off...
The days off are the days I cherish. I get to sleep in whenever I want. I get to hang out with my parents. I can finally see and talk with my friends. Catch up on things. I love being in bed all day just relaxing and getting to sleep in my warm bed with a heating mat :)
Well I’m gonna drop my dad off work than going to get a bite to eat with Tesh and than going to the gym. Than getting to...
Go Away..
Dude your 21 years old about to be 22. You have a kid with some other girl. Leave me alone I changed my number for a reason. You don’t need to be texting my friends to try and get information out of them. Do you not realize that they don’t like you. They are on my side and hate you for everything you have done to me. Get over yourself cause I am done being controlled by you. I am...
THIS STALKER NEED TO STAY AWAY ASAP!
Explain to me how a guy can be such a stalker. Guys always say that girls are too clingy but man i can honestly say you guys are wrong. My ex decided he was going to come to my work and look for me since i started ignoring his calls. He decided to leave roses that he picked from the park and leave it in front of my door at 3 in the morning and tell me that he picked it out just for me because he...
August 2011
1 post
LOTS OF THINGS TO DO
- MAKE AN APPOINTMENT AT DMV
- EMAIL SCHOLARSHIP LADY ON CURRENT STATUS OF COLLEGE
- EMAIL INSURANCE COMPANY PICTURES OF ACCIDENT I WAS IN
- DVC
- MAKE FOLLOW UP APPOINTMENT WITH DOCTOR
- MAKE DINNER
- WASH DISHES
- DO MY LAUNDRY AND MY UNCLES
- CALL THE PLACES I WORK AT AND TELL THEM WHEN I AM COMING BACK ( I NEVER FELT SO EXCITED TO GO BACK TO WORK IN ABOUT A WEEK AND A HALF!! )
-CLEAN...
May 2011
2 posts
family torn apart
so here i go again, ranting about my family.
i wrote my dad a letter asking why are family is the way it has been lately. my brother has moved out because my dad told him too. my mom and i are stuck in the middle between the fights between my dad and brother. my mom has been drifiting from the family doing her own thing. i have been going out lately so that i dont have to come to a home where...
Confused.
How can someone that you thought you loved say they love you aftet lying to you for so long. How could you take them back if they couldnt tell you one honest truth of something. Am i wrong for not accepting him back in my life? I feel i am not in the wrong. I feel like i am doing pretty good by moving on and being something that he will never become… Successful :)
April 2011
5 posts
pre birthday party day :)
my best friend tesh is throwing me a pre birthday party for me since my birthday is in 5 days. i can’t wait till i am 18 :) thanks to my best friend ill be partying it up tonight as much as i can till i turn 18 and than have my actual birthday party than the club birthday party :) DOING IT UP BIG THIS YEAR :D <3
FINALLY ITS HERE
finally got myself a job interview. i hope i get it. i really need the money to start paying bills to help ease the stress off my parents. wish me luck :)
SENIOR BALL
DREADING IT~
CAN’T AFFORD A DRESS, AND NO DATE, LOVELY :/
RAAAWWWRRRR
Love Me When I'm Leaving →
March 2011
4 posts
understanding me
i realized everyone says, ” i want to understand you, let me hear about you. ” as much as i hate people asking to understand me. i decided to write up a blog about it.
i am josephine, i am 17 years old. a senior and graduating early. going to attend beauty school. i have depression problems. i have tried comitting suicide so many times i stopped counting after 7. i have overdosed...
feeling...
LONELY.
DEPRESSED.
SAD.
FEELING LIKE CRYING.
SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS…
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
what i used to know →
meanings..
depression- kills.
friends- come and go.
family- stays in your life through thick and thin
god- always gonna be in my life no matter what i do in life
:)
February 2011
5 posts
cutest thing ive seen :P →
TALK SHIZZ
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE TALK SHIT BEHIND MY BACK BUT THAN WHEN I CONFRONT THEM ABOUT IT ALL THEY SAY IS I DIDN’T DO NOTHING, I DON’T KNOW WHERE YOU HEARD THAT FROM. LIKE DAUMM OWN UP TO IT! IF ITS THAT HARD THAN DON’T TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE, BUT IN A WAY I FEEL SPECAIL THAT IMMATURE PEOPLE LIKE YOU GOTTA TALK ABOUT ME :)
Superbowllll
Lets go greenbay :)
Kickin it with amazing friends
Partying it out tonight than packing tomorrow to leave :)
Lets see what the night has in store.
January 2011
4 posts
What a night
My brother tore a ligament in his hand break dancing. Got me worried when I went to the hospital but I got some comfort talking to my brothers friends :) I pray my brother gets well soon.
Taking It Day By Day
i have this feeling inside me where i feel so lonely. i know i have all these people who love me and care for me, but it just hits me. hits me the way it has never have before. i have been sitting in front of my computer for hours listening to music and waiting up for my mom. and my dads just sleeping. i really just feel lonely. i feel so trapped i really don’t know what to do. what should i...