i have this feeling inside me where i feel so lonely. i know i have all these people who love me and care for me, but it just hits me. hits me the way it has never have before. i have been sitting in front of my computer for hours listening to music and waiting up for my mom. and my dads just sleeping. i really just feel lonely. i feel so trapped i really don’t know what to do. what should i do. i was thinking that i should just try and relax and go to bed. but when i laid in my bed i felt this feeling that i have never felt. i feel like i am alone in this world and no one understands how i feel or understands what i am thinking. i have never been this way. i mean when i am out with friends and family i feel something totally different. i feel so happy and complete. i feel that i know that those people love and care for me through my ups and downs. i feel that they keep me stable. they are always there for me when i need that person to lean on and cry on their shoulder. through all the fights and arguments, they are still by my side. the one thing that touches my heart is to know that i am loved by them. the one thing that hurts, is to know that i am always going to have this feeling in my heart and mind that i am alone and that no one will truely understand why i feel this way. at times i feel i am loosing myself because at times i don’t even know why i am feeling this way. maybe i just need to take it day by day. cause i know that end of the day that i have people who love me around me.
